Series: Standalone

Genre: LGBT (m/m), Romance

Rating: 5/5 stars

Cover: I like how powerful it is in its depression

Links: goodreads, author

Trigger warnings: everything you can expect in a title like this

Description: 18-year-old Vincent Hazelwood has spent his entire life being shuffled from one foster home to the next. His grades sucked. Making friends? Out of the question thanks to his nervous breakdowns and unpredictable moods. Still, Vince thought when Maggie Atkins took him in, he might’ve finally found a place to get his life—and his issues—in order.

But then Maggie keels over from a heart attack. Vince is homeless, alone, and the inheritance money isn’t going to last long. A year ago, Vince watched a girl leap to her death off a bridge, and now he’s starting to think she had the right idea.

Vince stumbles across a website forum geared toward people considering suicide. There, he meets others with the same debate regarding the pros and cons of death: Casper, battling cancer, would rather off herself than slowly waste away. And there’s quiet, withdrawn Adam, who suspects if he died, his mom wouldn’t even notice.

As they gravitate toward each other, Vince searches for a reason to live while coping without Maggie’s guidance, coming to terms with Casper’s imminent death, and falling in love with a boy who doesn’t plan on sticking around.

Review: I had this book for nearly one year but I never dared to read it, because I was in a bad place and I was afraid it would be triggering. But now I think I should have read it in said bad place because it could have given me hope.

The beginning feels rather shallow and abrupt, but it fits how Vince is feeling and living in that time. It gets ‘better’ soon and then I was really, really hooked. I read it in one sitting, that should tell you enough.

I feel in love with the three MCs. They are so different and at the same time alike. But my favourite was Adam, he’s so cute… The romance is cute as well. I haven’t read a romance this vulnerable in quite some time if ever.

This book isn’t the longest you’ll ever read but the length feels exactly right. Everything is said. And the things that are said, made me tear up. So maybe don’t read it in public?