Review: This Is Not The End by Sidney Bell

Quick Info
This Is Not The End

  • title: This Is Not The End
  • author: Sidney Bell
  • publisher: HARLEQUIN – Carina Press
  • release date: 11. January 2021
  • series: Standalone
  • genre: contemporary, romance
  • diversity: mental health
  • content warnings: drug abuse (alcoholism), mention of suicidalness
  • rating: 5/5 Stars

This Is Not The End

A Polyamorous Love Story

Zacary Trevor is the love of Anya Alexander’s life. Their sometimes tumultuous marriage has survived ups, downs, and all the in-betweens. With successful careers, a lovely home, and a beautiful child, domestic bliss is a hard-earned reality for two people whose hedonistic days are in the not-so-distant past. They’re happy. Enter Zac’s best friend, the deeply reserved Cal Keller.

Zac’s friendship with Cal is the foundation of his career and—until Anya and their son came along—the most important relationship of his life. Cal’s a cipher, someone Anya can’t help but gravitate to, even if they don’t always get along. Even more, she’s drawn to the Zac she sees when he’s with Cal—a careful, cautious version of her husband, someone with hidden thoughts and desires kept secret even from her. Inviting Cal into their home, deeper into their life, is a risk.

Zac should say no. He knows he should. But he doesn’t. From the first, the hint at the life the three of them could have together is exhilarating. And finding a new definition for family just might be worth the risk to every bond that exists between them.

The Queer’s Review

Oh good god. Can I forget about reading this so that I might experience it for the first time again?

It’s been a while since I read This Is Not The End but just skimming through the passages I’ve marked… I fell in love again.

I don’t even know what I love the most. The characters? The friendships? The relationships? The dynamics? Just yes.

I’m trying really hard to not just gush unintelligable about this novel but it’s hard. There isn’t even a way to determine my favourite character because whenever I think of one I remember a certain thing a different one did or the certain way another just is and I just can’t okay?

I love how Anya and Cal are as a married couple, I love how they invite Zac into their life, I love the way their insecureness and happiness made their way over into my mind. There was so much rooting and being anxious going on inside of my mind while I tried to not just inhale Sidney Bell’s book.

Bookish Thoughts

If there is anything I didn’t like about this book I can’t remember it. I’m also quite excited to reread it sometime soon and maybe I’ll get sucked even deeper into the story and the characters.


I received a free copy through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. Thank you.

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