Review: If I should remember by K.D. van Brunt

 Series: Standalone

Genre: YA, Mystery

Rating: 1.5/5 stars

Cover: Love the colours.

Buy: Amazon

Trigger warnings: none

Description: Memories make us human. Are we still alive if we can’t remember?

Seventeen-year-old Zoe Laleigh has accepted that sometimes the only way to survive today is to wipe away the past. That’s what her loving parents and dedicated psychiatrist are helping her do—forget. What, she’s not entirely sure. All she knows is when an entire year of recollections goes missing, there’s definitely something wrong.

Sometimes the past isn’t so easily forgotten…

Through a flood of dreams, Zoe realizes something happened. Something terrible and tragic. Her lost year is a monster hiding in the shadow of her nightmares, taunting her, but unwilling to reveal itself. When her family relocates, she hopes a new town and new school will help her regain a sense of normalcy. If only it were that easy.

Strangely enough, only her dog, Rin, seems to understand her…

He is somehow connected to her lost year—connected to why she keeps doing things her mother calls reckless, foolish, and dangerous. And when she starts to hear voices and sees things no one else can, she is forced to question her own sanity.

The monster of her nightmares has returned, bringing with it the single question that plagues her at night…

What is there to remember?

Review: Always start with the good stuff, right? Okay… so, the idea was really interesting. A girl can’t remember a year of her life and then strange things start happening… only, not really.

This book has all your typical YA clichés. Nearly all of them, I think? Love triangle, special powers, animals and humans trust the MC even though they never do with strangers, unlike other girls, perfect at everything… you get the picture.

The writing style was okay, but not enjoyable to me because it wasn’t really flowing. But the worst was the logic. Or lack off.

For example: Zoe doesn’t eat red meat like bacon and later on she does. She doesn’t wonder why no one reacts to her dog and no person really asks why she is talking about a dog at her side. She speaks to her dog while people are there, but it is so quietly, no one hears it (sure). So much laughing without any reason to in my eyes. Why could Zoe sense certain things? And if only one year is missing, why doesn’t she know an important part of herself that you learn very early on? By the way, I can’t remember her questioning her sanity like the description tells the reader.

The mystery part was easy solvable to me, so no surprises there.  It kinda felt like there was too much stuffed into one story and therefore the main idea didn’t get the focus it would have deserved.

I really liked how the bad girl wasn’t all bad, though.
Disclaimer: I was provided with a free copy through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. Thank you.

2 replies

  1. Sounds like a really boring, two-dimensional character with a predictable plot. The memory-erasure trope has to be done carefully I think, because it’s been done *so well* by other people. Movies like “Eternal Sunshine” and books like “Mnevermind” are both examples, so I feel like I’d be constantly comparing this to better-done material.

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